Hungover on my worries
When it rains it pours, and I can’t ignore the flood
Tension fills my lungs until I overflow
Tears run until I can’t see clearly
I’m afraid of these unwieldy emotions
Too far gone to know what’s real
The more I feel the more I panic
Holding on to moments that no longer exist
One foot in the past, one foot in the future unknown
Hungover on my worries
Tripping over fears that aren’t even real
Drowning in the bitter aftertaste of failed dreams
Twisted inside out, I’m a wreck before I’ve even begun
Never felt quite like this before
Holding in that which can’t be contained
Drunk off the pain of careless words piercing my skin
The tattoos on my soul show more than I can say
That’s when you told me to leave my pride on the pavement
Forget about who I’m supposed to be, and just be
When your mind is on fire wash away your doubts
Listen to your better angels until you’re sober
Hold on to who you know you are
The Wandering Mind 
This brought tears to my eyes, Stephen! Hugs!
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So I did good? I just wanted to paint a picture of what depression and anxiety felt like for me Rebecca. I haven’t had that weight looming over me in quite some time, but I still remember the feeling. I know people are struggling and they don’t always believe me when I say that I’ve been there too. I’m good, but I needed to write this.
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Yes you did.
It is how I feel more times than I like to admit.
When I read this it made me so sad that you may be feeling this way too. I am happy you are not feeling depressed, I was so worried.
It makes me upset when people disregard our feelings our depression as if they were nothing.
This post was wonderful in relating how I feel when I’m depressed
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What I go through these days is nowhere near as bad as it once was. I can manage as long as I can get a few minutes to myself to regroup. There’s the odd day when I literally don’t get out of bed all day, but usually I let myself do that when I have absolutely nothing important to do.
I appreciate your hug all the same my friend. People assume that you can “just get over it”, when it’s more like something we’re almost constantly getting through. There’s a subtle difference.
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I am happy you are doing better now than you were.
It is so important for self care. It’s not being selfish. It’s for a better state of mind better sense of self, emotionally and spiritually.
People make fun of me all the time because I am alone.
Well I am around over 100 people every day those people are so negative and so mean, heck yeah I’m going to be myself!
Before I used to cry almost every day, I literally didn’t want to get out of my bed.
Most of it was my meds but now I’m feeling better because I’m meditating and praying.
I am so glad for this post!
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