Be The Same

It’s just another morning
Waking up after it’s all over
No time for warnings
My mind’s already been made up
I know that I will never be the same
But I’ll bite the bullet

I won’t lie, you’ve got time on your side
Cus it’s been so long
Memories piled up sky high
Make it hard to see anything other than what we used to be

Now I understand
What I want from you
I will never get
What I need to do is deal with it

I left my freedom on the sidelines
One day I’ll give my heart away again
It’s okay not to want me all the same
But don’t leave me hanging & believing
In you there was a reason worth believing
But when it keeps on changing that’s reason to worry
Got feelings so deep, that I could fall for you forever if I chose

Now I understand
What I want from you
I will never get
What I need to do is get over it

I’ve run out of words
I can’t win, but at least I won’t lose my mind without you
Given half a chance you’d find your way back
So tonight I’m cutting the lights & closing the doors
It’s a shot in the dark, but that’s just what I needed

Now I understand
What I want from you
I will never get
What I need to do is deal with it
Because I know that
Without you I’ll be the same

It’s just another morning
I’ll be the same, I’ll be the same

NOTE:
This is a “sequel” or companion piece to “At A Cost”.

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The Other End of The Line

I won’t tell nobody
Night after night I watch the stars alone
I’ve loved you from a distance
While listening to your voice on the other end of the line
Took my time taking in everything you’ve said
Cus I don’t know when I’ll see you again
And these conversations are too far & few
to fill me all the way so that I can make it through the days
And I don’t know what to say

I must apologize
You’ve got me making promises that I can’t keep
Every embrace is a dream & as soon as you leave, I’m awake
I can’t promise you forever
But I promise that I’m right here, right now & I’m not going anywhere without you
I know that I’m probably holding on to something that I can’t keep
And I don’t know what to say

I’ll show you that I’ve missed you, just in case you can’t see it
I’m stronger than depression & I’m braver than loneliness
And I don’t know what I’ve gotta say
My love belongs to you
Take your time, I’ve had plenty

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What Are You Waiting For?

I’m waiting for my life to begin. I’m waiting for my life to begin with you. I once wrote that “You are the big bang at the end of my days”, and I meant it. We have something special; it has been tried & tested. Maybe I’m wrong, but maybe I’m right. Right about you, right about us & right to feel the way that I do. I know that we will always have something standing in our way, but that should not stop us. You once asked me to promise that I’d never leave you alone, and I didn’t really know how to respond to that. I can’t promise you that, but I can promise you that I am here now, just like I have always tried to be.

We’ve been through this before, but with blinds on. I get it, we only see what we want to see & we hear what we want to hear. If I’m wrong just let me know, I can deal with that. I’d rather know that I was wrong than to not know where I stand with everything. So go ahead and break my heart if you have to, you wouldn’t be the first & you probably won’t be the last. I’m sorry, but I’d rather lose sleep over you because I know how you feel, instead of losing time over a game of infatuation.

I’m not asking you to drop everything for me right now. I just need to know what am I waiting for, give me something to go on. I’m drawing on words & painting pictures, just so you can see where I’m coming from. I’ve tried to show you how I feel, maybe I need to try a different tactic & be direct.

 

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