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Late Night Confession


You only live once, but with that one life you can affect the lives of so many people. I’m not talking about on a global scale, but rather on a personal scale. When you walk into someone’s life you can change things as they know it or you can leave them exactly as they were. How you choose to do that is up to you (and them).

I am not always the most responsible person when it comes to the effect my words or actions can have on someone. I like words because they have definitions & those do not change. Actions however can change course, they can alter direction & shift things in a split second. Words & actions have such great impact on people that it is almost frightening to speak or move sometimes.

I don’t try to convince people of anything, I have never been one to push or force my views on anyone. So what do I do when I have to convince someone that I am worth keeping in their life?
I sit back, close my eyes & breathe in everything that has happened, because I know that the next thing I say or do has the power to change her mind; and that isn’t an easy thing to do at all.

You see, I don’t want to change her, in fact I am the one that needs to change. She needs to know that I value & respect her. I do as I say & yet what I’ve said isn’t good enough for her to do anything with. It’s not about feelings, this is about belief. Belief says that I have given you reasons to trust that I will do what’s neccessary, what’s right. Feelings say this is what is happening right now & hopes that it will last.

So here goes:

There is a disconnect & I think it started with me.
I hung up & ended something before it had even started.
Somewhere between loss & certainty you will find me laying.
I am at a loss for words because I don’t know where to start.
And I am certain of nothing when it comes you.
You do not want to be understood, but you need to be respected.
And I simply do not feel this way.
Feelings, what feelings, who needs to feel anyway?

I could stop & simply walk away.
Never look back & go my own way.
There was no history to build upon, only passion bonded by bodies & laughter in the night.
You have everything that you need, so what need is there for me?
There is none, I am not needed nor wanted.
I go nicely with cold days & sleepless nights.
I stay where you lay, unless I leave to find you all over again.

My mind says it’s complicated.
Your past says this is nothing new.
Our hearts still say nothing, because they have never been used.
This isn’t about feelings, there hasn’t been enough time for that.
This isn’t about promises made out of desperation & sewn together with apologies.
This is about finding reason to push beyond what you know & what I’ve been.

I am tired, but still I’m trying to find something.
Something new, something different, or better yet, something true.
The truth never changes even when we do.

I could be cut off from all emotion & still I’d pour my heart into you.
If not with words than with warmth & patience that only comes with time.
I could jump through a thousand flaming hoops, but I’d rather set myself on fire.
I could leave & call this nothing.
But instead I stay awake as I try to get closer to you.

For what it’s worth, I haven’t met anyone quite like you.
And I don’t think I ever will again.

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Embedded (Less Is More)


Some things are said better without words.
Some things don’t have to be spoken to be heard.
I know this every time I look into your eyes.
You don’t have to say a word to get your point across.
I can’t deny this.

Hold on to me without laying a finger on me.
Follow me everywhere without taking a step.
You take my breath away just by looking my way.
They say less is more, but I’ll ignore them.
Because I want more of you.

Never have I tried to sit back & watch, always chasing after something.
Never been one to wait, it’s always now or never.
You came to me & saw something I couldn’t see.
After everything I just want to hear you say anything.
I can’t deny this.

Hold on to me without laying a finger on me.
Follow me everywhere without taking a step.
You take my breath away just by looking my way.
They say less is more, but I’ll ignore them.
Because I want more of you.

What you are to me will never change.
Once you’re in, can’t get you out & I wouldn’t want to anyway.
Tell me your secret, I’ll be your shelter.
Your love remains even when things are not the same.
Your ways are embedded in me like a tattoo.

They say less is more, but I’ll ignore them.
Because I want more of you.

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Live Wires


I’m sure that I’ve done it this time
Got too close & lost my damn mind
Said things that I know I’ll regret tomorrow
Cus I want you to stay, just a little too much

Dead phones & live wires
It might be too late for sorry
Too far to come back
Red lights are screaming
Cus I keep tripping wires

Why do lovers become liars?
I want to make you smile
But I end up doing the complete opposite sometimes
I have a habit of breaking things
I want to fix this & it starts with you

There’s no room for logic when you’re in pain
Apologies aren’t the same as some consideration
And silence screams louder than any siren ever could
So love me or leave me until it’s understood
Can’t always play it safe
My heart is saying ‘go’, but the warnings keep saying ‘no’

Dead phones & live wires
It might be too late for sorry
Too far to come back
Red lights are screaming
Cus I keep tripping wires

For so long I’ve tried to get into you
I want to give you all of my time
And I’m sure you’d take it
But would you just take me for a ride or keep me for good?
I’ve got so much love to give
But I can’t give it to you in small doses

Sure I keep tripping up, I admit it
But I don’t see you tripping over his moves
Every time you run, I lose control
Cut the lights & call off your guards
The only electricity we need is in our lips
You shock me with just a wink & a smile
I only hope that you get a rush as I take your hands

Dead phones & live wires
Give some face time a try
A little human contact before the night is over
Red lights are screaming
Cus I keep tripping wires

But I won’t run, if you won’t
Stop dodging commitment
Stop tripping, stop running
So scared of making mistakes
Don’t run, I won’t run

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My Word & You


Let Me Wrap My Words Around You

Let Me Wrap My Words Around You

Why do you run & hide?
Say what you feel.

When you give it up, you lose it all.

So what’s a man to do?
I know it’s late & I should be sleeping, but I’ve got nobody to keep me warm.
Got the place to myself & no one to entertain.
Got time on my hands, but no one to hold it for.
Days pass by like a Summer breeze, fast & furious.

Blink & it’s gone.

Won’t let you fall hard on your own.
I’ll be falling too, so that I can catch up to you & break your fall.
I won’t want for anything once I have you to hold.
One day I’ll keep my word & you in the same breath.

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Take The Lead


I am not leading you on that yellow brick road you’ve found yourself on.
I thought I told you that you’re not the one.
But still you think that I’m wrong.
Maybe I could change my mind, but I usually don’t.
Maybe you could be so right, but not for me at least not tonight.
So stop chasing after me, you won’t take the lead this time.

You’re free to want what you want.
And I’m free to be on my own.
Sure I like your company but you don’t own me.
So don’t place your bets on spending the night with me.
We’ll be sleeping oh so separately despite what your hands may say.

You’re good but you can’t keep up with me.
I move to my own beat.
So beat it if you can’t see what I see.
I’m not close-minded, its just that in my mind we’ve never been that close.
Look, you’re good, you’re just not good for me.
I suppose your sweet nothings should be saved for someone else who’d want to hear your every thought.
You’ll find your dancing partner somewhere.

You’re free to want what you want.
And I’m free to be on my own.
Sure I like your company but you will never be my partner.
So don’t place your bets on spending the night with me.
We’ll be sleeping oh so separately despite what your dreams may say.

I did not intend for you to want me like you do, it’s just something that I do.
I’ll be anything you want in your dreams, anything less would be reality I guess.
There’s nothing here for you to see.
I’m not a tease, but I can’t please you.
So it’s best that you move on, because I don’t want you like you want me & we’re not on the same page.

Was it something I said to keep my name on the tip of your tongue?
Sure we’ll be sleeping tonight.
Was it something I did to make you want me?
We’ll sleep separately despite what your dreams & hands may say.

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